Sunday, 19 October 2008

yes, we did it.

www.wedinblack.blogspot.com

good stuff.

Thursday, 16 October 2008

its already a thursday. quickie.
im gg to head down to vivo tmr to see some mpa stuff which is supposed to be useful.
but the best part is im booking out tmr afternoon!

if u all know the latest news, a kid died ystd in an accident.
hes from my camp.
tragic.

and oh yes, i bought 2 shirts and 3 pants on sun!
felt so yummy, my god.

ahhh i dont know what else to say.

Saturday, 11 October 2008

i experienced one of those repercussions again today.
damn its so hard to get over it.
ive been struck down again and again.
every time its almost like a losing battle,
but somehow i managed. like magic.
i guess i have to go thru it again before i can get over.

im deeply confused.


hello world.
bought a tie today. love it!
supposed to catch a movie but missed it in the end.
another time perhaps.
gonna go shopping tmr for shoes and some apparel.
hope i get a big catch!
i met 2 friends today. 1 from my current camp, other from sec sch.
makes me wonder what happened to all those people in my life last time.
where on earth have they disappeared to.
see, i dont seem to talk to old friends much.
cause i wasnt close to anyone since that thing happened.
or maybe it dates back earlier.

i heard news that lst maybe handing over obo to frigate.
theres goes the 10 grand.
but then again, maybe im not even going if they offer me.
who knows what will happen.

but anyway im so so thankful when someone intercepts my misery.

countdown to 8 days.

random: i watched tammy only today.

Friday, 10 October 2008

its been a rather boring week.
im having harbour pracs now.
went out last weekend and bought a pair of jeans and a bag.
shall continue my spree this weekend with shoes and more clothes hah!
payday's today yummy~
and im a half year soldier already!
i dont know whether to say its been fast or slow.
i enjoy some parts while i detest others.
but i can say that im satisfied so far.
and im afraid to say goodbye 1 month from now when we all get posted out.
im just starting to enjoy myself. damn!

i made a dream that day. or rather 2 dreams, but i forgot 1.
the other, i was offered an entry to ocs, and i took it without thinking.
it seems i wanna be an officer badly now haha.
but o well, missed my chance.
and its highly unlikely that i will get in, considering my uber sucky bmt experiences.
so im fortunate i put no to command school.
and i got posted to navy instead of guards or smth..
everything that happens has a link with another i guess.

well i just hope to stay happy.
but a chapter of my life is still incomplete.
i hope to get over with it soon, be it a happy or disappointing ending.
sometimes things are hard to let go when u put in and expect so much.
isnt fair this way when ure willing but circumstances oppose u.

im considering a few things right now,
and perhaps more in the near future.
hopefully, all will turn out more than fine for me heh =) (greedy)

goodnight swt dreamz.

ps: i guess i wont be blogging here very soon.
but anyway my viewership is so terrible. (i think)
im just blogging to let out how i feel. =/

Wednesday, 8 October 2008

countdown to 12 days.

Saturday, 4 October 2008

i really hate to go home.
really have nothing to do and i get nagged at.
last night i turned on some music from my psp cause it was too quiet
so my mum came into my room at who knows what time to replace the phone.
and she had to off my psp. hand itchy.
she woke me up and asked me how to off it when she herself already switched it off.
and everyone gets angry for being disturbed in the middle of the night right.
so i was pissed and i just threw my psp on the table.
and i got scolded.
i mean, fuck lah! the person is sleeping. if u dont know how to off it then leave it la. why wake the person up when hes sleeping so soundly.
i didnt even know she came in and turned the lights on. wtf. was so damn tired.

she wants to bring me see doctor later at orchard. i fucking hate orchard!
if i knew i would have gone out already.
purposely stayed at home today.
haix i rather be out with someone. anyone!


DOMESTIC STUFF ASIDE!
its been a totally speedy week.
watched eagle eye, not nice dont bother.
but sadly, next week is going to be turtle paced.
and i hope i passed my ror test. i think i would la anyway.
went back vj with zy after a bowling session with my tc.
it was freakishly saddening. the j1s arent around!
but o well. since we were already there. hung around in the pa room.
and managed to steal 5 cartons of 100 plus!
apparently there was some sports night event thing.
so whoops, if u guys dont have enough to drink.
saw loke, hes still fucked up as usual.
and foo running round the track.
its good to be back.
but thinking back, wad the hell happened to our class?!
everyones busy. class bonding bullshit wan la. the class very close meh.
everybodys moved on.
i was talking to my cousin on friday night.
a bit regret my route. im ok with my results n stuff la.
but wtf, the a lvl pple i met since leaving sch are so screwed up.
selfish little beings. _|_

its true, sometimes all we need is just 1 bestestest friend.
beats everything else.

its hard to lie every night without..
but, ..

Wednesday, 1 October 2008

theres a few points in my life where i almost broke down.
probably about 2 or 3..
and it all occurred in the past 2-3 years.
but now things are different.
i see a chance to change.
and it kind of makes me happy.
wow. maybe i can relive the past.
or even more! gr8!

but right now..i have to wait
im pacing in small circles.
just waiting..for an answer.

Sunday, 28 September 2008

my friend introduced me to this show probably a month ago.
saw a few episodes and i liked it
recently picked it up again
and wow i feel so close to it, as if its produced for me.
i soo wanna continue watching, but unfortunately
i dont have any storage devices to get it from my friend ):

and ystd was an ok day.
woke up at about 7
waited for a while doing i-dunno-what before rummaging thru my old stuff
and found this eminem cd i bought in sec sch days
took 4 songs out of it heh.
went to sim lim thereafter to buy a hard disk, but felt it wasnt worth
so walked over to suntec with zy to play some arcade.
gosh we died at the last boss -.-
i suck..
caught a movie later when david joined us. connected, apparently a reproduction based on the hollywood movie cellular.. kinda ok la..
strolled over to fisherman's wharf for dinner where i had an ok tasting salmon
then sat down and talk cock for a while, and by then i was really shagged out.
and lying on my bed, i was having the usual disturbance.
gosh.

right now theres so many things i wanna do.
but i dont know where or how to start,
and i dont even know if i will do them eventually.


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fucked up. my morning just got screwed.
i was taking this series of mini tests online..like btt and ftt
and my mum came over and ask "what are u playing"
i mean i was concentrating on thinking..and she used the word playing
so i kinda raised my voice cause im really irritated.
man i was pissed. cause to her whenever im at the com im playing.
even if im typing something important im playing.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HER!
maybe it sounds as if its nothing, but ive endured it everytime it happens
i really hate that feeeling.
its like the saf. like if the higher ups do something wrong its as if theres nothing wrong and they show no remorse.
but when we smaller beings do something wrong we get screwed like fuck.
seriously, sometimes i wonder if i will be better off alone.
as least i have to rely on myself and get to learn so much more in the process.


im jaded. out.

Friday, 26 September 2008

man i felt like the top of the world today.

hope to rebuild a new me

dont wanna be a maggi mee in a packet

EAT ME!

Sunday, 21 September 2008

lovely sunday morning
and i gotta book in way early to clean up my camp
what is wrong with those suckers!

in ns everything is lan lan..
especially if u got a shitty job with shitty pple.

and im fed up with life
i feel so lost, my future so bleak.
i dont see where im heading 5 years from now.
gosh that sucks big time.

softee

Sunday, 14 September 2008

saturday duty is terrible
but something else's worse.

churning and churning
shrinking and shrinking

sometimes whats the point of trying so hard,
when everyone else has already given up.. hor?

Wednesday, 10 September 2008

freakishly uber sad!
dunno what to do!!

mmph!

Monday, 1 September 2008

its either i wasnt sincere enough, or theres no god.
i believe the latter.
all of a sudden im lost,
and it happened way too fast.
just a moment ago, i was thinking of all the lovely stuff..
really just wasnt prepared for the next.

i thought i could..
but right after the "click", all fell out of place.
my stomach was churning, and i snapped wide awake.
now i really wonder why.
was it all thought over?
as in really really thought over?
cause i didnt have the luxury to think over anything.
but i have no complaints, only lots and lots of regrets.
memories may be sweet, but what about those bitter ones?
just like a basket of mixed fruits,
some are fresh, some are rotten, and others are unripe,
like those unaccomplished promises.

i feel like taking a hammer and start whacking myself.
i mean, what the hell was i doing?!
everyone wants to turn the clock back,
but yet everyone knows they cant..
im just like one of those idiots wishing for multiple chances,
although somewhere inside i know it may all be in vain

it all seemed so yesterday,
but yesterday was never enough,
and never will be...

-crossing every finger n toe-


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Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?

No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)

I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know

That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Ohhhh
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go (without you)

Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you

Thursday, 28 August 2008

IM ABOUT TO HIT THE ROOF!
KNN CCB!

Tuesday, 26 August 2008

i feel that i was much stronger last time
like i wont give up so easily
argh i just miss my sec days

its time to think about what my instructor told me